Carrots and their fear of Rabbits.

Hi there! How are you? I for one am wonderful and just wish things could get even more perfect! BUT THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE.
So yeah, dear friend Alex Mackenzie gave me this title and I don't know what he was smoking/drinking/thinking when he told me to name today's blog that.. but it's pretty chill so I'm good with it. I guess. And, follow him on Twitter k? @awmackweir ! Thank you!

Well, today I did the OSSLT. And it was long, excruciating and kinda hard! HARDCORE I MEAN. I didn't want to stay at school when it was finished, but I had to so it sucked. A lot. 

You know what ! I don't even wanna blog today! Like I just dont feel like typing, but I guess I owe you guys, eh? Well it's 6:30 and I still haven't had dinner.. which is lame. SO MOM MAKE ME FOOD OR I SHALL GO SCREAMO AND NOBODY WANTS THAT. Yes, I taunt my mother on my blog.. how cool am I.

Well, me and James are chilling after school tomorrow at my house and then to Youth Group! We usually just meet up there, but not tomorrow! So maybe, if I have time I might let him blog again! :)
Well, BELLA'S RECORD IS HITTING A GREAT BREAKING POINT. I MEAN IT'S COMING ALONG REALLY WONDERFUL, AND SHE IS GONNA GIVE ME A SET LIST SO FAR!!!! (That means all the song title's names) And I'm excited to see how it all has come along to! :)
Well and there is a catch, she's only gonna give me ONE song title a DAY. Which I can't complain but I wish I could just have it all at once you know what I mean!! Well anyways, my fingers are tired lol! Talk to y'al soon. 
Love,
Kaytelynne.

What a wonderful life!

Alright, so I've been thinking.. that my blog posts aren't usually that long! I mean, I'm the kind of writer who get's to the point, get's the point across and it's done! And usually the point isn't a hard thing to talk about, so this time I am gonna try and make this one a little longer then usual :)

So, I'm not sure if any of you care. But, right now my life is pretty wonderful! Yesterday me and James had our 3 month anniversary.. although minus the week and a bit that we weren't together that doesn't add up.. but we will just include that time, and move on lol. And tonight, his family came over which just included (Mom, Dad and his sister) and my parent's hadn't seen his in a while so they got closer, and talked about what's up, you know the "How's work" talked about politics? (weird) and things and schools and you know, things that parent's talk to eachother about sometimes. Then they left, and I came straight to Facebook and Blogging! May I point out that you have all been so good to me with the support and reading and just all in all being awesome to me. It really means a lot. So expect lots more blog out of me! :)

I know this is sort of a "self-question" but how are you all? Hope none of you are sick, depressed or just unhappy or anything un-good! Because if you need someone to talk to.. I may not give the supreme advice that others might, but I am a good listener. Just thought you all should know. 
And if your in school, I hope you are doing well in it. And trying your hardest, though that sounds weird coming from a high-school student.. It's true you should try no matter the obstacles that you may go through in this journey in the first chapters of your life. AND REMOVE ALL BAD SKELETONS FROM YOUR CLOSETS. RIGHT NOW. 
If you don't understand that, it pretty much means.. whatever is weighing on your heart.. from the past of right now or whatever you need so say or get out of the way.. There's no need to waste more time being sad, or weighed-down or regretful in any way. It's all now. So tell the person you love, that you love them. Get the horrible memories from your past, out of your life and just do it all and you shall feel so free. And then, pray about it. Because God, will change your life if you just let him work in you. <3

Um, well so I've heard that Bella's record is doing very well. And she is working hard and getting inspired.. so if any of her friends are reading this. Pressure her to work on it whenever she is being lazy! Or just feels uninspired, so talk to her deeply and get her brain cells pumping. And if you talk to her and become closer with her, I guess that will make her feel un-alone again. And, she probably OBVIOUSLY needs you right now.
AND I NEED HER AND ALL MY BESTFRIENDS !!! (Like Mia of course) Because they make me who I am and I love them so much and I wish that they would talk to me more so I always have someone to lean on :)


Well, that;s kinda all I have.. sorry for the short blog.. Well not as long as I though it would be blog.. But thanks for tuning in! LOVE YOU ALLLLLLL.
Have a good rest of your week, See you soon!
Love,
Kaytelynne.

I guess this is my 17th blog!

Wow, 17 already.. isn't that great? I just think it's wonderful. Anyways, I'm happy to say.. well I'm happy again.
I realized a lot of things last night, and I sorted it out all in my head and I had a breakthrough of all this horrible pain I was feeling and I looked back into my past unto days I remember from when I knew what happiness was and how to get back to it. So I did, and the first thing I did.. Was picked up the phone and called James.

He was apparently at the park down the street from his house, that's what his mom said. So I left my house like a gimp, and I didn't care how much it hurt to walk.. or run. So I got my crutches and I started walking.. his house is a fifteen minute walk so you can imagine what that must have been like if you've ever had a sprained ankle or anything and dont something wreck less like this. But I didn't care. So when I got there, I just saw him throwing a football back and fourth with one of his friends from school that I recognized. His friend had just caught the ball and James had his back to me so he didn't know I was standing there, his friend pointed at me and James turned around and looked at me and he looked back at his friend and he walked away with the ball, and me and James walked toward each other. 

I didn't know what to say from there, everything up to that point had just been a Stand-on-a-table-and-declare-your-love-for-him kind of moment. And so he just said, "Hey, Kay. What are you doing here? Your supposed to be resting. " There was a silent pause as I was trying to think of what to say. He said "How are you?" 
I thought for a quick second and said, "I missed you so, much. Ever since Friday.. I've been a mess without you. I went into this dark place and I shut everything out, I crawled away from everything that made me, me. And I just shut all of it out. I was a mess, I still am. I know you think this isn't going anywhere since then, and I just came here to tell you that your wrong. I know you've been really upset with me, and I am so so so sorry about every single thing that has happened. I don't wanna go another day feeling like I'm missing something, and that's you" 

(PS- I said all of this on the edge of breaking down so I had tears in my voice and eyes, and he knew it) I spoke again, and said "I'm just sorry.. Please don't hate me forever" 
He looked at me, looked down and waited a second to speak.. He said, "Yeah, me too. I know you screwed up, and I forgive you. I love you. " He hugged me and then looked at me again and said, "Stay for a while, I'll drive you home in a bit. I missed this.. You" I smiled and we walked back over to his friend and they started throwing again and I sat on the bench a few feet away from them. I smiled and said "Don't miss" He laughed and looked away again. And, that's my day.

And so as I've figured all of this complicatedness out.. I realized that it's all worth it. Even without anything, every single thing in your life is worth it. And don't waste a single second saying or doing the things your gonna regret, or you don't need. So yeah, be happy.
Thank you so much for the support and wisdom, Bella Merryweather.
And my mom, for helping me through being a teen. I love you.
Hope your all happy! <3

Love,
Kaytelynne.

Why?

Hey everyone again,
sorry about my last blog and how upsetting it must have been to read all these depressing feelings I have right now, and I just haven't been myself.. at all. Although I'm really thankful that it's March Break right now and I don't have to have the stress of school going on right now.. I just don't think the time I have left on holidays is gonna be enough to heal this damage.. you know?

Last blog, I also didn't use any punctuation and capitals, etc. And that's sort of the thing I always do.. I mean I'm not the smartest person in the world, but spelling in grammar is just who I am I guess. And I guess last blog I wasn't feeling myself, or like using any of it was worth it.. or let alone anything was worth it. And unfortunately, I still feel that way.. almost like is anything worth it? And I just feel trapped, and alone with no where to go or anyone to talk to, I just feel empty. You know? I've never felt this feeling before and I don't like it.. And I don't really know what to do at all right now. It's like, where do I go? Who do I turn to? And when is this all gonna end, cause I am definitely not myself right now.. and I'm really struggling through it all..

I don't really wanna post the truth right now, in detail.. about what's going on.. but, we can just say.. that right now I'm single. I wasn't sure if I was on Saturday when most of this was in full effect, but I now know I guess.. that I am. And it's painful, cause I've lost a bunch of people that meant alot to me. It's not a good feeling.
So, thanks for listening.. I hope your all doing well.. because as you can tell I'm not.
Well, I better try to get some sleep and maybe when I wake up, I'll feel better then I did before. That's what I'm praying for.
Love,
              Kaytelynne.

insert title.

this march break, we can pretty much say it didnt start well at all.. and hasnt been very good.
for starters, i have a sprained ankle and cant walk at all and im pretty much stuck in the house.


it all started on friday at youth group, when i had fallen on the stairs sideways and landed on it really hard and all this pain started flowing right into my ankle and they took me to the hospital and called my mom, took a while to get a room and took a longer while to get a doctor in there while i was almost still about to bawl my eyes out in soo much pain. so then they checked it and all that fun stuff and said you have a sprained ankle, wrapped up and stuff and gave me crutches and yeah now im a gimp. 

the next day, which was saturday .. was when james was going to come over after dinner and then he called and said he couldnt because he didnt feel good and had a bad headache.
so i said yeah yeah whatever you know its okay hope you feel better. and all he said was thanks and that he had to go. so i was kind of upset because 

1) i wanted to see him so he could make me feel better. 2) i felt like he didnt want to talk to me. 3) i felt like he didnt care and i wasnt good enough for him, i dont know why.
and also, one of my best friends unfriended  me because i was "ignoring her because i had a boyfriend and just left her behind and using her when i didnt have anyone else" and said alot of really nasty things to me at school on friday, and right now on top of it all i just dont know what to do.

and im questioning all these things, like am i doing the right thing.. am i enough for james to want me.. why is all of this happening to me? and is anything worth it.
i know ive been through all this before in my life, and it was pretty bad for a while until someone helped me out of my hole while they didnt have anyway out their own, i thank them so much and i just dont know if i can do all this! ive been so happy and so strong.. and now i just wonder, now what? should i give up? and what am i even doing? so i just dont know what to do anymore. 

ive been trying to make sense of it all, but right now i just cant. 
i hope everyone else is doing good, but for now ... im not.
thanks for reading.
kaytelynne.

Hey everyone! This one is important!

Actually, I don't think today's blog is that important, but you know it's pretty awesome.
And, there is something that you should all know about. And it concerns the whole universe! It's Bella Merryweather's combover! (Yeah I know! Combovers are sweet!) And, it has recently been making her so angry that she has threatened to just get rid of it, even though we all know deep inside she loves it sooo much! 
So make sure you all tell her not to get rid of it <3
.. I don't wanna blog anymore right now so I guess this is gonna be a short one .
Thanks for reading guys.
Love you all,
Kaytelynne.

hi my name is james.

hey! my name is james! and my girlfriends name is kaytelynne ... and this is her blog. i thought i might just take over todays blog and talk about me cause im super awesome.
 and yes, we are infact 'chilling' at her house.
and yes i am sooo good to her .. we went to walmart yesterday to buy her one tree hill show (its pretty good) and i took her to tim hortons for lunch (im such a gentlemen) and we got hot choco's and we both won cookies .. so we went back in and got cookies, they were amazing <3
and we enjoyed our time together watching this show... and then when i left (she also walked me home! shes such a gentle.... girl? i dont know haha) i kissed her, it was very nice and she went red .. because my mother was watching haha it was a little awkward ;)
and we have one class together .. so i get to walk her to all her others, and she kisses me on the cheek .... and yes we infact do hold hands ;) 
im sorry ... is this too weird for you .
okay , im making it really awkward right now with her.
so im gonna say something funny . i just told her i loved purple .. ya she laughed . :)
well, we should probably go and do something else .. like take a romantic walk.
oh yeha .. think about that .
ps if a dude named ALEX MACKENZIE please exit to your right and you will find a cold beer and a pot of gold with your name on it !
just joking i was supposed to say hey! so hey man! 
peace guys.
james.

What is this feeling in my stomach? Must be barf.

Barf is such an UGLY word. Like just say it a few times, and then what comes to mind when you say BARF. Obviously barf.
Well here's the news, I still don't have a follow from Justin Bieber on Twitter! It's been a month or two since I offered him 1 wish if he followed me, and he hasn't! SO ungrateful.
Me and James (My boyfriend) watched One Tree Hill yesterday and talked about stuff we haven't talked about before, like our past and things that bug us secretly and the things that hurt us, so we got pretty deep and it felt good to get a lot closer :)
And today I listened to a song that dear bella had told me about and it is simply beautiful! And makes you think about a lot of things like that! AND IT'S CHRISTIAN. Bonus! So if you get some time listen to Pieces by Red. You wont regret it. 
And right now, I want pizza. Really badly. And I might be going to the mall today as well with Robin, Kate, Mia and Kristen. They smell but I'm pretty okay with that. Are you? 
My weekend was really good, and so was youth group :):)
sO HAVE A NICE DAYYYY
Love you all.
Kaytelynne.

Today is Thursday!

Pretty obvious title if you don't have a calendar or something to keep you posted on what day it is. But right now I have something to tell you, and that is that Bella Merryweather now has her own blog as I have been told! 
It's pretty funny so you should read it! I believe it is called "Bella's Blog YO" and her name is bmerryweather.
Anyway, I don't think I'm failing any classes yet ... and that's wishful thinking so you really don't have to believe me. Legit.
Ps; I wish I had a sister cause my brother's are crazy annoying and I just wanna puke when I see them! It's so crazy.
And I FINALLY have enough money for One Tree Hill Season 6!
I'm gonna buy it on Saturday with James, and then we are gonna watch it together :)

And season six is hopefully gonna be very enjoyable and amazing just like all of the other seasons! (See above)
I have Youth Group tomorrow, and it IS in fact FRIDAY! So get excited! And whatever else you want to do to make it a great weekend for you! And I am also going to have an awesome weekend myself cause...
1) Fridays are generally awesome!
2) Youth Group with my besties! 
3) Sleepover with my Best friends!
4) THE WEEKEND.
5) Hanging with James watching One Tree Hill.
6) Sleeping in on Sunday <3 
PSS - I hope you are all telling your friends about my blog so they can follow and be apart of my life cause that would be cool!
And I might just love you .. or not. But who really knows.
;)
Oh great, My brother Damen has friends over.. ready for a dumb night? Yay I am! I shall steal his laptop and go to my room! 
So, until next time my dear readers.
Have a nice afternoon!
Love you all,
<3 Kaytelynne.