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this march break, we can pretty much say it didnt start well at all.. and hasnt been very good.
for starters, i have a sprained ankle and cant walk at all and im pretty much stuck in the house.


it all started on friday at youth group, when i had fallen on the stairs sideways and landed on it really hard and all this pain started flowing right into my ankle and they took me to the hospital and called my mom, took a while to get a room and took a longer while to get a doctor in there while i was almost still about to bawl my eyes out in soo much pain. so then they checked it and all that fun stuff and said you have a sprained ankle, wrapped up and stuff and gave me crutches and yeah now im a gimp. 

the next day, which was saturday .. was when james was going to come over after dinner and then he called and said he couldnt because he didnt feel good and had a bad headache.
so i said yeah yeah whatever you know its okay hope you feel better. and all he said was thanks and that he had to go. so i was kind of upset because 

1) i wanted to see him so he could make me feel better. 2) i felt like he didnt want to talk to me. 3) i felt like he didnt care and i wasnt good enough for him, i dont know why.
and also, one of my best friends unfriended  me because i was "ignoring her because i had a boyfriend and just left her behind and using her when i didnt have anyone else" and said alot of really nasty things to me at school on friday, and right now on top of it all i just dont know what to do.

and im questioning all these things, like am i doing the right thing.. am i enough for james to want me.. why is all of this happening to me? and is anything worth it.
i know ive been through all this before in my life, and it was pretty bad for a while until someone helped me out of my hole while they didnt have anyway out their own, i thank them so much and i just dont know if i can do all this! ive been so happy and so strong.. and now i just wonder, now what? should i give up? and what am i even doing? so i just dont know what to do anymore. 

ive been trying to make sense of it all, but right now i just cant. 
i hope everyone else is doing good, but for now ... im not.
thanks for reading.
kaytelynne.